Yes I am still alive, although if you only follow me on my blog you probably thought otherwise. A lot happened over the last week or so and I felt so caught up in the online world, I was missing out on reality. After switching to self hosted I ran into countless issues that caused me to have a breakdown in my room on several occasions. After spending 6 months working so hard on my posts and all you lovely readers following me, the thought of losing it all was definitely freaking me out. Luckily everything is sorted now so I can take a step back from all the technical things that go along with self hosting your own blog and just focus on what I love, writing and talking to you guys.
I often find that if I spend a lot of time stressing about something I grow to resent it, assignments and tests are a good example haha. I’d spent 3 days straight sitting on my laptop talking to tech support people trying to fix everything that the last thing I wanted to think about when it was all sorted was blogging. I was really worried because I’d just put a lot of effort (and money) into my blog and now all of a sudden I didn’t even want to think about it. I messaged my friend trying to put these feelings into words (while failing miserably) and she understood how I felt. She reassured me that everyone feels like this at times and told me to take a break because I had been so stressed that it wore me out, all I needed was a little space to see again how much I love it. Don’t get me wrong I knew I always loved blogging and that wasn’t going to change!.. but I’ve always been terrible when it comes to tech related things, when I was 10 I got an iPod shuffle and I spent so long trying to set it up and it going wrong that I didn’t even want to use my iPod… until a few hours later when I had calmed down and could actually enjoy it. That exact same feeling came over me a few days ago and all I needed was a bit of time to calm down and forget about the stress, now all I can think about is the new posts that I want to write. My blog is finally the way I’ve always dreamed it would look, I’ve gotten over my little blogging slump and am back in the swing of blogging. The stress of switching is finished and I can just enjoy blogging like I did before. I can’t wait to work harder than ever to produce fab content for you all and make even more friends this year!!
Even though I could have just kept blogging as usual and never mention that I had issues and needed some time to work through it I felt as though I not only needed to but wanted to. My blog is a place where I want to be completely me, I’m not going to cut out the hard stuff because it won’t sound as pretty. I’m always going to be 100% real with you all. Also just because I had some issues with switching over to self hosted doesn’t mean you will, & if you do run into problems there is almost always a solution so don’t give up if it’s something you want to do!!
I’ve said it countless times but I honestly can’t thank you all enough for the support I have on my little blog, when I published my first post I thought I’d get 10 followers if I was lucky. Even though it sounds super corny I do think that I was meant to start a blog, I’ve never clicked with something like I do with blogging. It’s become a huge part of my life and I feel so grateful to have amazing readers who are always there for me and have pushed me to keep going even when I wanted to give up!! Blogging is something I want to pursue for many years to come and going self hosted was the best decision I’ve made, even though there were some bumps in the process. I now know how to overcome these problems if they ever happen again in the future. I’m excited for this fresh start on my blog in 2017, the new design and more control I have makes me want to put more and more effort in every day. I just quickly want to mention that I’ll be posting at least once a week, a post will definitely be up on the weekend and I may also post during the week depending on how stressful school gets. Thank you for taking the time to read all this, I feel like a weights been lifted now that I’ve got it off my chest. Much love as always.